Black Girls Are Easy: Are You Wifey Or Are You Pussy?

Black Girls Are Easy: Are You Wifey Or Are You Pussy?

this and that....

Damn its been a minute since I posted something. I really need to get back on the ball. Its my version of therapy.

A sister have been a little spazzed out lately. I was on a roll with my classes and got slapped with a failing grade on one of my test. Yeah, I was a little disturbed. Thankfully, I could retest and was able to pass the second time. Now I am sitting here telling myself to take a step back and take my time. Be patient. Things will fall into place soon enough.

Then that dreaded day came around. Yeah that day called Valentine's Day. I treated myself cause no offers came up to do it for me. So I had 1" thick angus steak, shrimp, and the works for my dinner. Fixed it myself, and enjoyed it fully. Even had Coldstone for dessert (mmmmm). I had a total of 6 people to send me V-day notes. One was different, however. He actually blasted on me, telling me I should have demanded from the closest men in my life, except for my son, to be catered to my every need because I deserved it. When I told them I hold no position in no one's life to warrant that, he simply said "cut those niggas. They don't even deserve your friendship much less anything else you give them. They don't even deserve the brain cell that you have given them. You deserve a hell of a lot more. You should be number one in their life instead of a number when they need you." It was stunning for the most part, but it was true. I deserved all of that. I thanked him for the insight, but I was emotionally raw from that 7 minute phone call. I could not dwell on that, not for long. I had to push on.

Now I'm back to the grind, forgetting about the issues that I have with my male species that I have to share Earth with. I'm looking forward to hosting an event with my HSS crew in March, seeing David Tutera in Charlotte, and of course my birthday. Right now I'm looking for anything with Chococat from Hello Kitty.

final transformation.. new career move

Well I am doing the damn thing!

Right now I am working on getting my career on its way. I am currently taking classes to become a wedding planner. I thought that planning regular and lifestyle events was tough. There is SOOOOOOO much more to learn about wedding etiquette, planning and coordination that it boggles the mind. It is definitely keeping me focused on my ultimate goal and my mind busy.

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2011....new year, same haters

Well 2011 is already off to a good start. I have connected with childhood friends, made connections, reminding myself that there is someone out there that deserves my time and attention, and is creating a foundation for my new career.

Why is the same damn bitches that hated me in 2010 is STILL hating on me in the new year??? I mean really, can y'all concentrate on somebody else? Then again, you are my biggest fans. You are the only ones that seem to keep my name in your mouth. I have never said a bad thing about you, welcomed you into my house, allowed you to get lifted, gave you money when you needed it, and yet I am the scum of the earth. You won't talk about that, will you? In the end, I treated you like a human and you took that as sign of weakness.

This year, while I am still doing me, still making connections, still going about my business, I am going to be the better woman. I will still stay hello, I will still invite you over for drinks, and still treat you like a human. Go runtellthat!!!

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Well FaceBook is playing another game where users have to send to another user a number and the user will post how they feel about the other person as their staus message... so far this is what i got about myself....

‎#418---you scare me in a "good" way. lol Those stress relievers are sooooooooo needed and appreciated like no other. super sweet and cool in my book for life

‎#418 you are funny and wild as hell

#418... wanted to kiss them lips, ravage that body ... & lick ur tattoo ever since the loft..!!!

#777: so its hard for me to articulate what i really want to say about you, your funny sweet, and I love spending time with you. You're an amazing person inside and out and I can't wait to see you again ♥..oh and i like molesting you too.

#418 cool person... hold on... you work with me.... get back to work.................

and our feelings...

Well I was talking to a close friend today and he asked me why I haven't settled down. When I told him that I haven't found the right guy, he got kind of upset. He actually said that I was slipping, and that is not how he remembers me from years ago.
Rejection is still a big issue with me, and it will always will be. Yeah, back in the day I was a lot more brash. Now I am reserved and a little bit more cautious with affairs of the heart. You can say that a woman can only get her heart broken but so many times before she puts it in that box and bury it under the Vatican. All I could say to him is when that man sees this diamond in the rough, he will have something more precious than anything man can create.

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This Masquerade

I live behind this mask, concealing my emotions as I move through the rigors of life. People come, people go, and yet my mask remains the same. My mask is always smiling, always happy when greeted. Behind the mask lies the pain of heartbreak, unable to express what she truly is and what she desires, for the sake of another or others, for they may not understand.

I am constantly evolving to learn when to hide my real being and when to come from behind the mask. I am not be perfect, but I am human. As the song goes, "we're lost in this masquerade". I shouldn't, but I must.

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